Monday, January 26, 2009

Kids These Days

I love my job. Have I mentioned that before? Well, I love working with the kids. The few times the adults don't cancel, they are rather enjoyable as well. But, the kids make this job for me. They love unconditionally, they are always optimistic, and they love to play. Last week, one of my client's has a younger sister, let's call her "Julie", who is about seven or eight years old. She asked me my first week if I could be her PSR worker, and I wanted to say YES! but I told her maybe down the road.

Her sister is very fun as well, and sometimes their mom let's me take both girls to go play and do other activities. Well, the other night, "Julie" didn't want me to leave but it was getting late. She proceeded to ask me what my plans for next Friday were, and if I was free, I could come babysit her and her siblings. I was dying inside! I wanted to laugh, but somewhere inside her I could tell she was serious, and hopeful. Her little invitation melted my heart and is making this -10 degree weather not seem so bad. (And litterally, my face is frozen because it was 2 degrees when I walked outside the gym to my car tonight!)

I can't wait to have kids. More so, I can wait, but I can't wait to go to work tomorrow. If only I could talk some of the adults into playing hide-n-go-seek tag or finger painting, or trying on tacky clothing at the D.I!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

A Few Things I Know

1) I need people in my life! I was feeling lonely this morning, so I went into work early. From 10 am till 830 pm I was surrounded by people! It was so fun, and the more I learn the ropes to my job and such, the more I realize how lucky I am. I'm getting paid to hang out with people and help them. When I hear their problems, mine seem so small. I'm grateful for what I have and for everything I've been given. I sure do have it easy. And, did I mention how lucky I am to get paid to hang out with people?!

2) Wells Fargo is the best bank in the nation. Okay, so I've only banked with 3 banks in my whole life; one was bought, one went out of business, and one is staying strong, serving across the nation, and is buying other banks! And, the lady who works at the W.F on Hitt Road rocks my world! She's like an awesome aunt, or grandmother!

3) Sometimes, having pizza 4 nights in a row is okay. It's fast, easy, full of calories (and I need the calories right now! Work takes a lot out of a woman!) and it is d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s!

4) After being away from my home all day, seriously all day, I love coming back to a clean, warm home. I think spending a Saturday or Sunday lounging around is exactly what I'll need after a long week.

5) I don't need to run 9 miles to get runner's high. I ran 4 the other night and never felt better! I swear, exercise heals. I would be interested in researching if humor and exercise have similar effects on illnesses (mental and physical.)

6) I love my family more than anything I can describe! They have listened to every single one of my plans, and then more ideas, my complaints, my joys, they've heard my tears, and they still make me feel normal! Sometimes I think I'm crazy for having such a hard time with this new chapter, but talking to them makes me realize that I'm going to be okay, I'm not crazy, and "this too, shall pass"!

7) Life is everything. It's exciting, it's scary, it's up and it's down, it's hot and cold, it's thrilling and it's boring. But mostly, it's what you make it. So, I've decided to make it a good one! There's got to be something great to every day. (Like today: we played hide-n-go-seek tag in the office because it was too cold and snowy outside to play; I got paid to paint a picture of the beach; I had pizza with a friend; the list goes on!)

8) All that's left to do is "Carry on, wayward son; For there'll be peace when you are done". Kansas knew this whole time.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Smile, Cuz' at Least We Have Today.

January 4th, 2009. I started off this year with a lot of hope; I was so excited to see what this year would bring. Right now, I'm finding a little stress, a lot more anxiety than silly exams could ever bring, and a loss of words for how a certain situation unfolded. I can't say much about the situation, or the person, but I can keep my own confidentiallity, well...not confidential at all. I'm the most broken I've ever been. And, it couldn't be more hilarious. I can't wait for the sun to shine a little brighter, for the temperature to warm up, and to find some new love this year. I don't know if it will be a new love for myself? For someone else? Or for something? I've been thinking I'd love to try new extreme activities like skydiving, surfing, swimming with sharks, heli-snowboarding, going to a movie by myself...maybe not this last one.

I heard of a talk given in church in which the speaker was asked what he wanted to be when he grew up. His reply was simply, "I want to be happy when I grow up." I've decided I want to be happy when I grow up, which means I have to start practicing now! A good friend of mine recently gave me a book for Chritstmas, "What Happy People Know". At first, I thought, gosh, does she think I'm really depressed? Has it really shown? But then I thought, wow. This friend really knows me and really cares about me. She has read her book (I think she said) 14 times. I'm only through the first chapter, but I'm excited to read more.

All in all, I think happy people pretty much know that no one can make you happy but yourself. I would like to make other people happy. Hell! I would like other people to make me happy! But, we can only control ourselves, our reactions, and only we can make up our minds. Someone once said, "You are as happy as you make up your mind to be." Yeah, pretty true.

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